It’s been a long minute since I posted anything. But I woke up today to some news that has me feeling really disappointed and frustrated. I am so pissed right now add to that being sick for days and I’m gonna have to try my best to keep my blood pressure down. So I feel the need to pour out some feelings…
So if you know me already, then you know I’ve been feeling frustrated with my current job situation for some time now. I’ve gone from wanting to find a PRN position, to finding another job completely, to just sitting and waiting, to maybe even finding another job that has nothing to do with working in the laboratory.
About a month and a half ago, a friend of mine told me about a job listing for a Lead Medical Tech position at another local hospital her in NOLA. I’d been looking off and on at the job market, and when something interesting came up I’d think about applying but nothing dinged my radar. This opening though, seemed perfect for me on paper. It was in my hometown, in my field of expertise, it had the salary range I was looking for and on it’s face, I was very qualified for it. So I went all out on my application for this one. I updated and snazzed up my resume, something I hadn’t done in years, and submitted my application. I got a call back about 2 weeks after the opening closing date I got a call back or an interview!
Long story short, I went on the interview. It was a panel format, and it lasted over an hour and it was very intense, but I never felt nervous or out of my element. In fact after leaving I just knew that I had killed it. I felt really good about my chances of getting the job. I think the panelist were impressed by me. I was confident and knowledgeable if I do say so myself. I left feeling good about my chances.
So the waiting game began. Week one post interview…Week two post interview…Week three post interview…a new development, but not where you think. Yesterday, I heard a rumor. My former supervisor, who stepped down months ago to work as a bench tech along side me and my fellow bench tech, was leaving in June because he had gotten a job another local hospital, the same local hospital I had applied to! Jobs in Micro are hard to come by anywhere (especially so in NOLA, since there
are only so many hospitals here now and medical lab since Katrina). Folks don’t tend to leave them unless it’s to retire or for a complete change of careers. So when they have them everybody know about them. So I was pretty sure that the only job that has been open at that hospital was that Lead Tech position I applied for. Last night, I reached out to my contacts at the hospital and I also emailed the hiring agency contact person.
This morning, I got the update on the opening, they decided to go with another candidate…so that son of a bitch former supervisor who hired the current crappy new supervisor (long story), probably did get the job. Ugh!!!!!!!
So now of course, I’m feeling frustrated and sick (I’m battling a weird bug or allergies). I took an extra day off work, to try to recuperate. but with this news about the job, I’m glad for the extra day. cause if I had to look my former supervisor in the face or the new supervisor in the face or listen to some of them old biddies complaining I might scream…I don’t have a good poker face, when I’m pissed.
I’ve got alot of things I need to think about. I really do have to be open to all possible scenarios now. I’ve felt for a longtime now, that I don’t see any room for growth for me here in my current situation, unless something else comes along. I needed this position so that I could get SOME supervisory experience. I may be willing to leave but only for a position like that. I have to face the fact that there may not be that here in NOLA. I’ve got to think about where I’d want to live or where I’d be willing to live if a good position becomes available.
I’ve got the next 4 days to think about some things. Now though, I need to get over this sickness. Next I’ve got to calmly and rationally think about a few things…
BTW it’s been great weather here in NOLA all week. TODAY…raining buckets….maybe I have mutant powers and am controlling the weather with my feeling today…😃😃😃
One thought on “Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired….”
I feel your frustration, lamh. I understand your POV. That job wasn’t for you. There’s something else out there, just get calm and be open to it.